So my coach is asking us to write things that is true to us. And this is something that is true to me, which is this...<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Life is friggin' exhausting...<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was just thinking about my life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Since the day I was born, I felt like I was thrown into this current.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Needing to perform at school, get good grades, pass exams, get into a good university, study the necessary courses to graduate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So that I can get a job. Keep working, make money, get to the next step.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Go back to school, get a Masters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then find a person, get married, have kids, make sure they\u2019re ok. Make sure we are on top of things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Why?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
While growing up, my mom kept telling me and my brother that life sucks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I resented her, for a very long time because I kept thinking, then why the heck did you bring me into this life?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I didn\u2019t want to have kids.. because life sucks (and that was how I felt).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I desperately wanted to get out of it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I built up other parts of my life, like building my business.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because in the back of my mind, I wanted to get out of this \ud83d\udca9 hole.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And my coach just bombed me, because she said, stop asking for your business (or whatever you do) to heal your wounds.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
While sitting through this, I realized I carry a lot of my money insecurity wound, my insignificant wound, my not smart enough wound, and many more...<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have to heal all of these friggin bull\ud83d\udca9 on my own.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And not rely on my business to heal me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I ask myself what do I really need for these healing to take place?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And the deeper answer is, I need rest, I need fun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I need to care about what I really need first.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And yet I am too exhausted, so my answer is, I don\u2019t know. Yet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I\u2019ll just float down the river for a little bit and let it carry me wherever it goes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And see what happens next... nothing has gone wrong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If you\u2019re feeling the same way, I want to let you know that you\u2019re not alone.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
So my coach is asking us to write things that is true to us. And this is something that is true to me, which is this... Life is friggin' exhausting... I was just thinking about my life. Since the day I was born, I felt like I was thrown into this current. Needing to perform […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":819,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_wp_convertkit_post_meta":{"form":"-1","landing_page":"","tag":"0","restrict_content":"0"},"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-818","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"acf":[],"yoast_head":"\n